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终于来写第二封网上日记。。。其实，主要是要表达我的谢意。。。一直都被朋友说我是个很不好的好朋友。一直把每个人都当很普通的朋友，而且都不会重视朋友。。。其实，我一直都觉得我还蛮幸运的。一路下来，我遇到了很多很多的朋友。虽然不知道大家对我的感觉是如何，但觉得至少还有谈得来的朋友。我一直都觉得我其实人缘真的没有很好。毕竟，我感觉到的是时常没得到大家的重视。但偶尔却会有人说很羡慕我。。。不明白。我的想法其实是很简单。我每次都觉得有很多很多朋友就好了。有人一起玩就好了。所以有时会有人说我很奇怪，不会珍惜别人对我的好。去年，我严重的食物中毒。进了医院。一开始，一个人在房间，真的上吐下泻，附近没朋友。最后，很无力的躺在床上一动也不动。最后，很无力的打电话给朋友。一开始，也许是我平时的个性，大家觉得好笑，还以为小事。来载我时，才惊吓。去了诊所，回来时，大家叫我去他们房间睡，以便有照应。我进去他们的房间，大家为了我，关了冷气。去各个房间找被单给我。一直注意我的状况，还煮粥给我吃。到最后，粥还没吃到，我就被送进医院了。一路越来越严重，大家都好担心。进了医院，两个人陪了我过夜。到第二天，好朋友们都早早来探望我。陪我聊天。过了不久，一群朋友来探望我。到了晚上，又有另一批人来探望我。不止这样，学校的朋友会议执法简讯慰问。其实，我一直都很感动。至少知道，原来，真的很多人关心我。第二天晚上，其中一个之前陪我过夜的继续陪我，只因隔天我的另一个朋友有事。但，另一个认识了9年的朋友留下来陪我。还担心被忽视看到。因为，我在男生病房，女生不能过夜。但她却留下冒险了。虽然他有点像男生，但还是危险的。最后，父母来了。特地上来看我。带我出院就会去了。前几天，我又吃错东西，一直泄，很辛苦。又得到大家的照顾了。很谢谢大家的。其实，近期，我发现，其实，很多人都很照顾我，而且重视我这个朋友的。 黄岳伦：谢谢你带我看医生，陪我住了两天。而且还很帮忙我。陈勋杰：谢谢你陪我过夜，而且害你功课迟交而拿零分。很抱歉。陈旖妮：认识要十年了，其实也不懂要说什么，应该要陪我过夜的吧！哈。 但还是谢谢你冒险呀！徐立昂：哈。谢谢煮粥啊。而且还帮我把衣服带到医院。谢谢你。。许惠麟：谢谢你来看我。陪了我这样久。何慧莹：哈。谢谢你啊！也是早早来陪我。哈。。 感动。。。其实，真的还有很多人咧。但是不懂要怎样一个一个写。就是谢谢大家啦！！ 其实，认识我很久的人都知道我有很多对朋友的坏毛病。不会讯息，上网不理人，不会电话，不主动约人，聚会不出息，见面不打招呼，最重要的是，当我换了一个环境，我会像是人间蒸发一样，不见了。找不到我。不联络，不出席任何活动。哈。。其实，主要原因是，我真得很懒。但我会慢慢改啦！还是谢谢大家不管我多少次不出席，还是不理人，还是做了多么过分的事，都会原谅我。而且会说，“认识你这么久，当然知道你的个性，也不会在意啦。”虽然，应该感到愧疚，但我却很开心，朋友真的是很了解我。 真的是个感激朋友的记载。哈。。。其实除了上面的事件，还有很多很多。只是因为，上面那些人一直说我很过分，没感谢付出最多的人。挥发简讯给探望我的人，他们为我卖命的却没得到任何东西。其实，因为真的跟你们很好，所以才会拖。哈。但，我写博克真的是表达我最深的谢意咯！谢谢啦！！！ 我会学者珍惜朋友的啦。。。。

today really very important for me…….no matter how tired am , i still wanna write it out…..

5th rc forced to postpone to next semester…..as chairperson, i really felt so sad and sorry to everyone….really…maybe this semester i’ve took too many things that i neglected u all and make this thing happen……since d problem arised, i would think if i put more effort in it….if i concerned more abt this, would it change???

furthermore, today…..4th training…i saw d members all work so hard in their program or duty…..i really almost cried out ‘coz of this…….i felt so sorry that i cant let everyone make it in this semester…..

committees……i really glad to have u all as my committees….. u all put in so much effort and heart in here…..’coz of u all….’coz u all believe in me, believe in us…..that’s make us work harder…..

members….when i told u all this things……i can c tat every of u have d same feeling wif us……sad…..but i feel so happy to almost every of u willing to stand wif us till next semester and trust us…..thx…….after that, when saw u all cry, i was moved by everyone…..yesterday i keep wondering whether how many ppl will stay or will anyone angry ‘coz of this….but after today….i really proud of u all…..u all like rc…i know….i can c that….this is d 1st time i saw rural camp members can have such a strong bond among themselves in such a short time…..u all being so supportive…..and d msg u all sent to top 4….thx….give us strength…

thx for those who always concern abt me….thx de hong for messaging me….thx previous members…..’coz of my partners, my committees, my members, and all of u …….i promise to stand up and make 5th rc become d best ever…….thanks everyone…..from d bottom of my heart……

now is midnight ady….but still cant sleep…..many things that are waiting for me to solve….waiting for all my partners to work together and face it….

dont know y….this whole semester…there’re few words that always come out from my mouth…..tired….no time…bek cek….and dont know since when ppl start to tell me dont be so bz….study hard……

this semester i really dont know wat am i doing….juz doing those events and nothing else……b4 this…i felt that doing an event is very happy as everyone work together and wait for d outcome….maybe this semester i juz waiting for those events to pass……not enjoying it??? i oso dont know…..sometimes i feel really tired tat i asked myself wat’s the point of doing so many events and in the end maybe will affect my results…..but sometimes, after d event i felt tat those dayz that i sacrified for it really worth it as the result and the feedback are very good…..and i really felt damn happy when i heard ppl discussing abt thsoe events ………

this semester i’d neglected too many things besides those events…..everyday meeting meeting meeting……no free time….no relaxing time…..but ‘coz of this…i realised something that i really din notice…..frenship….hahahaha……maybe everyone knows that i’m really a little bit bz, so they will always ask me how i’ve been…..and will sms me, saying something tat really give me strength to hold on……and oso leave some comments for me……..maybe those little things may seems like nothing to others, but those little things really give me strength to carry on…….at least i know that those things that i’ve neglected will not leave me…..hahahhaa……

frenship is really a long term investment…….we need to maintain it well and we’ll get a great benefit……and frenship is also a thing that cant get it by forced……haha…..damn lucky to have u all……..buck up ya everyone……work hard together….no matter where u all been……juz fight for our own future ya…………chiong arrrrggggggggg

since last semester, after finishing d youth camp as program master, i can feel tat it’s a challeging post of being this. so when i heard that this semester will have a talent night but different way, i’ve been thinking of wat is d difference of being a program master of a camp and a night.

then at 1st, d oc come and approach me to be another post, but maybe many barriers and many things to be considered, it’s cancel. but luckily, they asked me to be their program master. be frankly, i’m really happy to become a program master rather than other post. haha.

after that, i heard that many ppl aiming for this position and d voc said i ald in this post, no need to be elected…ahhaha….so happy…

we start our job since last semester…..but when this semester start, i’ve no confident at all…….as i’ve got many things to do…..afraid of neglecting this…..few weeks later, i’ve decided to fight for this event and make it to d best…..

bz every dayz….thinking of program flow, from audition 1 to audition 2, then mini concert, then grand final……in between, there are mv shooting and studio recording somemore photo shooting for banner……..so many things to do…..and for external, we need to find artist perform, judges and performance……so stress……

but luckily, all ald pass and give a very good feedback….so happy abt it…….especially d mahjong paper…….since we proposed this idea, seems like many ppl not really like it……cost too high, wasted human resource and time…….somemore ppl will also scold u ‘coz of this……..but luckily….success……..really success…..when i heard many ppl tell me ….. " this night so good", "mahjong paper shiok"…..omg….damn happy…..even when i online….many ppl will msg me and tell me d night so success……touching…..and we create d 1st "INTI SUPER IDOL", ADELINE……d 10 finalist..i’m glad that i know them and quite good…….happy to c that…..

this night…..everyone put many effort in it…..few times i really think of quiting for many reason…….then thinking of "this is my fren’s event"……then continue…..but really…..i’ve nvr regret of doing this…..i dont know whether i’m good o not….but at least i hear some good feedback and compliment……

few times thinking i really dont have those ability to do big things…..many times feel tat i’m not tat good…….but thank god…this inti super idol ald finish wif success……..YEAH…… really happy lah…….

yeah……finally finish d AMAZING RACE @PANGKOR ISLAND…….extremely happy and exhausted…..

1st day on 29th of June….we were supposed to depart at 10pm…..but d stupid stupid stupid General Office….din communicate well……and d stupid bus driver late…….so we start d bus on 11pm……then as my partner and Program Master went to d camp site 1st……..so i’ve got to bring 40+ of them to pangkor…..quite stress at that time as many things haven done……but luckily everything went smoothly although in between d bus driver lost his direction….stupid…..and i juz cant sleep well during d whole journey as i really afraid we lost……arrrrggggg

then we arrived at lumut jetty abt 5am.program started……treasure hunt…..everyone was so tired but to win they have to play hardly……haha…..after that, all of us went to pangkor island and start d survivor games…..on d 2nd day, everyone looks so exhausting and seems like didnt have the mood to play…..but in the evening, everyone was so happy and excited as they juz play in d sea with d huge waves……omg…..this unexpected wave had made us cancel many games as too dangerous…..and during d "sea treasure hunt", many of us were injured and quite serious as too dangerous…..but this game was so interesting…..yet we were so disappointed…..

the last day…..amazing race……this was the 1st time during this event i saw them "racing"……omg…..cant imagine wat situation was that when u were not in d place…..like asking for money, performing to earn money and many other ways to earn money for them to go to jetty with insufficient amount…..besides that, some gp juz simply stopping ppl to have a free ride…..hahaha…extremely funny and exciting……in d 2nd station, which needs all of them to help d boss to give petrol to 15 motorbike……4 gps ppl shouting on d road asking ppl to come in and keep shouting and shouting and hold ppl from leaving……hahaha…..damn shiok……..

many task they have to complete without any money as they have to go to d place by their own and d place is very far but they still manage to find ppl to fetch them…..there are motorbikes, vans and even lorry that willing to fetch them…..very interesting……

it’s really a nice trip……amazing race……finally we reach wat we want so no regret of organizing this event…….thx all my committees tat they really put their effort in this and my happy participants………thx for ur participation and hope everyone feel happy ya………

finally…finally come out wif d newest blog……..

suddenly i really felt tat i shudnt take so many things……it really make me feel so tired…….maybe ppl may think wat am i doing all the time? actually who knows? ha……..i think no one will know my situation……

i really feel tat wat i had promised to others before this semester begin, i din do it…….i promise not to neglect any other events ‘coz of other things…….but……….really felt sorry to those ppl that i had promised…….but i promise i will minimize this problem……and will not cause any inconvenient to them….

this semester…….i organize two events in adventure club…….pangkor amazing maze and tmn negara…….as d oc and voc……jobs to be done…..many things hav to settle it…….but luckily both oso got partners that help me to share this burden…..and d past amazing maze….as  a human resource…i hav to make all d helpers committed in the event…so of course i hav to attend it everyday…’coz of this…i miss many things……..besides that….i’m d program master of d inti super idol……this is a huge event for stact club…..of course…..as a pm….i shud be very responsible to everything in the event…….lastly is d rural camp…..previous semester i’ve promised not to join again….but i joined it…..and become d chairperson…..dont know y…..suddenly everything seems like very hard….everything seems like very stressful to me……hahaha…..i shudnt be this kind of person……

today finish d 2nd rc’s committee meeting….really felt glad that everyone really give out their opinion….and d previous problem tat we faced……finally we get an answer from them…..for me……i really felt tat all of us must stand together……we cant do anything without any of u ………hope tat this 5th rural camp will be very successful…………..

as for my studies…………arrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggg…….shudnt forget this……but i really din do any work ………omg….in inti , we shud put our studies in d 1st place……but…….ai……this is d last semester that i organize or help in those events…..hope tat everything will be all right……….

today really happy…..’coz for previous experience….the amazing maze use up 3days 2 nights to finish…….and this time…..again….amazing maze been organized by 11th intima adventure club…..we use 13 hours to finish all maze….from 10pm-11am……extremely exhausted……..

at 1st i tot i wont carry out for so long as the next day i had d rural camp events……..but dont know y….juz ‘coz urge to see d maze been set up….so i choose to stay bec….and i nvr tot tat in this amount of helpers…we are able to do it so well…….compare to previous year……..we hav lesser persons…….but we still able to finish it…….really happy….now juz waiting for d outcome of our work…….

finally can online d…i’m in my inti’s room….new semester going to start….yet i still in the previous semester mood….omg……dont know how to face this semester…..

it juz seems like yesterday tat i 1st joined 3rd rural camp….juz few months……3rd rural camp ended……now …….4th rural camp ended too…….this semester…..keep bzing wif those events…….but who knows…….4th rural camp make me feel so happy and warm…….

during d final training…….everyone work extremely hard for this camp…..dayz and nights…….work together…..even when the training over…….each gps members still gather around to do their works……wat make me feel so warm was during d "sharing time"…..b4 that….i tot that this 4th rural camp’s committee, none of us will cry…..as i tot we very tough……who knows……we were worse than previosu semester one…..this 4th rural camp has stealed our tears…..

as for me…….i nvr tot that i will cry that night…..but dont know y….when we look bec the dayz we work together…..how difficult for us to walk until now…..everyone break down…..especially the 4 group leaders….haha…….who knows we will cry until like this…….really…..

as for my academic gp……..i really glad that i’ve chosen all of them as my gp members…….those msg that they sent to me…..makes me feel like crying everytime……all of them really good….i cant say anything badly abt them…….really……thx……as i said……i cant do anything without u all……..

during d camp……..my partners……zennway and cecilia…..ha…..nice ya……we are great partners……maybe sometimes i may not help much or anythings that i did wrongly…..sorry ya……but overalll ……..really……we done a great job rite??

this is d 1st time i saw all thsoe little kids cry for us…….although our own members ald cry during the camp’s sharing time……but i nvr thought tat those little kids will cry too…….so touching……tat moment…..really make all of us feel so happy…..

no matter how happy we are…..this 4th rural camp ald ended……but our frenship will be there……juz like 3rd rural camp……..time passes……but our memory and frenship remains the same rite?? ha………glad to be part of them……